Dear Best Friend,
How have you been? It’s been months since we last spoke. Each conversation took us more than an hour before we broke through the wall. Do you remember what it was like when we spent almost everyday together?
I’ve missed you. I’ve missed us.
Do you remember the times we’ve shared dolling up one another, me crashing over your place when I was ill. You pouring out your thoughts and showed me what it was to be courageous. a time when i tagged along to every event that you wanted company to. walks to bus stops, coffee sessions at a local coffee shop, thought provoking conversations, giggles on ridiculous remarks over our phones.
I’ve missed you.
the only thing im thinking about is what are you doing now. how are you feeling? has the emotional roller coaster ended its ride? has the doubts subside? are you ready to let me in?
i’ve thought of telling you how i truly felt when we first had tat fight. how i couldn’t give you the exclusivity that you desire or how neglected i felt when i saw your social media sites flooded with pictures and events with other people. i wanted to tell you how often i teared when we fought over minute things. when i couldnt just couldnt call you my best friend anymore because you cant give me the same exclusivity that i’ll need.
but i couldnt.
it doesn’t matter anymore. because i know now that you’re probably gone and i have no idea how i could reach out to you like i used to.
i miss you. and i sincerely hope that you’ve found what you needed from someone else.
You are the still the closest person i have to a best friend.
your anonymous girlfriend.