past weeks have been rough. i believe i haven’t been the best person.
to be honest, I’m a little shaken. but after settling down a little and with an overseas trip in less than a week I’m optimistic things are about to become even better.
but the one thing i’ve learnt about myself is that i have the ability to say ‘no’.
yes. as selfish as i seemed to be sometimes, i am also a ‘doormat’ to many people. authorities at work, colleagues and even subordinates. i deserve more.
but deserving more isn’t just saying but it is to justify it each time. we’ve been through rough patches but to learn how to fight for oneself that’s a new ball game.
i’m super thankful for my bf, KM, who’s been standing by me for the past couple of weeks. even though i was really quite messed up. i begin to see my insecurities as an issue of the heart. something bruised so long ago, that i retreat from situations only having to accumulate it over time.
im thankful for people who showed me the person i am and the person i can prevent myself from becoming each time.
its a learning process. learning to say no can actually be one of my biggest challenges so far.
so yes, after a double confirmation (one from my boss.. who said i need to be a lil more assertive) and another from Sheryl (my cgl) , i can only conclude that it’s true.
one last thing: tact is one thing. but not saying something genuine to pretend to have ‘tact’ is another.
strike a balance before it strikes you.